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Welcome! Saturday, October 31, 2009 Hi everyone, Welcome to HearMyDream! N439's very own blog! Beyond being just a blog for a close knit group of people, this will be a place where we will share our dreams, and inspirations along the day. It'll also be a place where we can just talk about anything we love! ( we have great shufflers amongst us!) Also, we might have outings once in awhile, and you are always welcome to join in the FUN. I have personally watched this bunch of young people grow together for the past 1 year. I've watched them laugh, cry, truimph, fail etc. But through it all, they've learned to maintain a great attitude and are always learning from their mistakes. I have been personally blessed to be their friend and brother. I know you will be blessed too as you get to know them more through this blog! The world is full of friendships, but often, friendships turn sour... I myself have gone through that. But I learn one thing, there will be people, who will be more than just friends. People who are called "Family" People that even when in ugly disagreements, will at the end of the day, still remain as family. I used to wonder, that it is impossible to have TRUE friends. People will always look out for the benefit of themselves. But if you learn to stop looking at what people can do for you, but rather look at what you can give, you will find yourself surrounded by TRUE friends. When was the last time, you did something for a friend, just because you love him or her? Do appreciate the people around you today(: It took me years, but I am glad to say that I now have friends whom I know will lay down their lives for me.  May you find the people, whom you know you can call them your friends. May you find the relationships that will last for life. May you realise, that life is really just a sum of all the relationships that you make or break. We really appreciate you coming to visit this site, we hope you enjoy your visit! Xinni's Testimony Monday, October 26, 2009  Hello earthlings. I'm Xinni and I am not started out as God's Generation. My heart was once broken by a man. I nearly suffered from emotional depression and I often felt that I'm ugly and unappreciated. Problems lead from one to another.. Slowly, I was so depressed and freak out that I even thought of committing suicide- just so to end everything with that one jump. I quarreled with my family every day, going back home just to sleep, to clean myself and to cry my heart out. I lost my interest in studying, resulting in unable to cope with my studies and flunk my examinations. I quarreled with my friends, some even given up hope on me. My teachers were utterly disappointed in my behavior and performances in school, somehow, they don't even wanted to care anymore. Therefore, I often put on a fake smile, just to please the people around me. I may be with a group of people, but I often felt loneliness filled within me. I lost my purpose in living, and everything just seemed to be out of place. It was then, Xingyan told me that I was not place on earth by any accident, I am not a burden, and I never was. People around might fail you, but there's someone who will not. Cherie, who is my classmate, invited me to a service drama on Easter Day. It was my first service and I was feeling quite uncomfortable there. But somehow, I came for the next service and am hungry for more. As I got to learn more about the word of God, my life changed for the better. I got the strength from Him to live on, the discernment to differentiate what's right from wrong. My relationship with my friends grew better. I surprisingly study with my own will. I had peace with my family members and is in good talking terms with them now. I found my purpose in this lifetime. To love God, to love myself, and to love others. Though sometimes I still found myself alone, but it isn't the same anymore. 'cause whenever I look up into the sky, I know that He's looking back at me, telling me, "It's okay. Daddy loves you.." Yiwei's Testimony 
Being a Christian seemed to be just a title without any meaning. I also faced several problems like, depression, anger and lack of purpose. Several occasions, I would not go out with people because I was playing the computer. My parents also resorted to hiding the keyboard and mouse from me, but without fail, I would find it.Drowning myself in computer games was a daily activity used to forget all my problems. I was an ordinary person living an ordinary life. Until several years ago when I started to attend City Harvest Church regularly and renewed my relationship with God, I am still an ordinary person, living an extraordinary life! I found a loving family in my cell group, and with their love and support, I broke the addiction of gaming . Going to church brings me joy, where I’ve found my purpose in life and solutions to my problems. I’ve discovered what it truly means to be a Christian through experiencing God’s love, and I hope someday you will experience his love too Cheryl's Testimony  Hello everyone! *waves* this may be a little lengthy, but i believe it's worth to read, enjoy! When you give your life to God, He'll put great things into your life and make you the one He originally created for . Before i received Christ, my daily life was only slack and more slack .I go to school only once or twice a week and i was really not interested in studies .All my days were mostly slept till late afternoon and then hang out in the mall till late night .And when i return home, all i saw was an empty house, a house without love . My parents were often working and leaving me alone at home, and all of us lacked of communication .Which resulted in a divorce, i was hit quite hard by it and i told myself to seek a love outside because home is not a place for me anymore .In order to get the love i yearned for so badly, i hurted myself emotionally and physically . And i remembered the way i "directed" from an emotional pain to a physical pain was to take a penknife and slit my arm .The days were really led meaninglessly, aimlessly and at times i would question myself, "What am i on earth for ?" . Until one day, my friends and i were invited to a Bbq by this group of christians .When i heard of it that it was organised by people from City Harvest, i was a little turned off .Becaused of the bad past i had with City Harvest people i had a bad impression and assume that all the people in the church are the same . The Bbq went well, the people were awesomely friendly and i knew deep inside i wanted to come back .The following week, they invited us back for a Cell Group meeting, but my friends and i wanted to just go out on a friday night and hence we turned them down .Unexpectedly, they specially had another Cell Group Meeting specially for my friends and i . And that day i remembered all of us made a friend waited up to 30mins for us at the interchange .Who can actually have such a high patience .The cell group meeting that day was awesome, something or someone moved so strongly in us .Tears just flowed and flowed, but none of us knew why, all we knew is, we felt something we yearned Love . After that day, i saw my life changed for the better, although i did not go to school everyday yet, but i was dropping my habit of using vulgarities and also i learned how to use the two magic words "Thank You" and "Sorry" .Over a period of time, i found myself knowing this special someone God, i learned about him and i knew he was my only source of love.And because of my love for him, i started to love and accept people that are not the same as myself . My temper also became better and my schoolmates will ask, "What has gotten into you?" And the most miracle thing happened that was i got into one of the better classes in my school, although this class i am in brings alot of stress, i was taught how to handle stress well and not running away from it .Also, i've learnt how to manage my time well and actually studying, there was once i actually hit 25hours of studying which was a great achievement for me. Through my walk with this special person God, He taught me how to love people even when they hurt you, He taught me the ways of leading a proper life, most importantly he taught me how to love my family . Without him, i'll never be who i am today . Michelle's Testimony  Hi friends! I'm Michelle and I'd like to share with you a story of how I met a special person who changed my life. And this is how it goes... One day, a classmate of mine invited me to a session of board games at the Mind Cafe with her group of church friends. Being an introvert, I was nervous and shy to meet them. However, they were really sincere and nice people. It was then that I started going with them to church. I came from a Catholic background but didn't know much about God and the bible. It was then I decided to plant myself in City Harvest Church.Before I came to church, I used to be someone with a low self-esteem. Zero confidence and full of fear. There were a few occasions where I wanted to go out but changed my mind because I was afraid of how others would look at me or say about me. When I came to church, I got to know this special person called Jesus. I got to know Him and His word (the bible) more. Slowly as I knew Jesus, I got to know who I am in God what God says about me. God took me, this unpolished jewel and polished me into who I am today - a jewel shining for Him wherever I go. Shiming's Testimony  I was really a slacker, never ever studied properly, till last year. I was pessimistic, even looking down on myself, giving up every single hope of myself, but I found hope.I was lonely, never knew how to make a friend, just trying to try in a clique, but I found out.I was a person whom forgets but didn't forgive, I forgotten all I had changed, done, my memories aren't secure.I didn't have a bright future, I paid no attention to it and just continue wasting my life.I couldn't find any attention and didn't care, just ignoring the problem. I am not an open person, keeping all things inside, but I found THE ONE whom can understand me, feel what I feel, be with me where ever and when ever.I believed in other religion, but wasn't devoted, never found any help.I'm not alone ever after THAT DAY, THAT MOMENT, THAT SECOND, when I opened my heart, gave it to Him.I never feel that emptiness, that sad, low, deep, sorrow that can't be described ever again.My life took the greatest turn around after that turning point, gradient = 0.My thoughts, thinkings all changed, to the better me, the one I was meant, and made to be.He knew us all, even me, even before we are born, even before we even existed.He guaranteed our existence, our lifes, continue waiting for us, for that moment we stumble upon Him, realizing the truth, and never deny it.I couldn't be sure of how I changed and etc., but my friends would had noticed it, the spark that would light and burn everything up is very bright. Now I'm working towards the bestest of me, visions, dreams, all for me to accomplish, the way God wanted me to be.Though I'm still struggling in many areas of my life now, but I'm very glad that I came so far, accepting that light that broke the darkness and shadows in me, where no one could ever reach. Now my life is exciting, filled with troubles and successes, all the ups and downs, I went through together with Him, which i would had never ever gotten any chance to experience.You'll see the truth, the light, everything becoming clearer and clearer, eventually shining and blinding everyone. Now, whatever I want, I just need to open wide my mouth and ask for it, and it will be a matter of sooner or later, no worrying needed.This is the new chapter, new beginning of life, where you can dream big dreams, accomplish whatever you want, having no worries, never be tired, just hopping and skipping all the way through your life, ON FIRE! Nothing is impossible, no problem too big to solve, with the One Greatest with you, no one else could be against you. Junhao's Testimony  Hey, I'm 13 this year and I received Christ on June 2008. That was when my life changed for the better.Something happened to my family, my Dad was an engineer and had to wake up early one day to go to work, things happened to him at work and he was sent to the hospital. My Mum brought us to the hospital, that time, i was still young and knew nothing much, he died a few days later and i did not understand anything. It was a huge change and i had to grow up without a father,i had no one to turn to for my problems and i turned to computer games, thinking that it can help. I started getting addicted. Everytime i reach home, i would just throw my bag aside and started playing games. I would only stop when my brother needed to use it. Sometimes i would quarrel with them just because of the computer.It did not help at all because in the end, i will still be bothered by the problems i had. I had a christian friend who would ask me to church.I went, but i would just go for fun, not learning anything.I went at least twice, but i stopped going because i wanted to play games. Suddenly, my brother started going out often, he would usually stay home and use the computer. I was curious and i asked him, he told me he was going to church and i was surprised.He invited me and i followed him there.It was very different, everyone in church was very friendly, and even when they didn't know me, they all treated me as thoughi'm a very close friend and i felt very welcomed. I started going back often and i responded to the altar call. Changing was hard but i was determined.I got my grades up and i'm proud of it and God helped me through it all. Yuanmay's Testimony  Dear friends,My name is Yuan May and I am 16 years old. I am currently studying at CHIJ Secondary Toa Payoh. I live with my parents and one brother. Although it is a complete family, my dad is often absent from my life. We didn't interact much and often, I had no one to turn to for guidance and affection.Three years ago, before I came to church, my whole life was filled with Bitterness and Loneliness. I had a wide social circle outside, yet I had always yearned for someone to be totally dependent upon. I was a hot-tempered and vulgar person. My life revolved around the need for love, but I did not know what to do with my life, and I got into trouble with a few friends. On TWO occasions, the police was even involved. I was a troublemaker, and I was often called to the principal’s office with those friends. I caused my parents to worry often, yet I disobeyed them and even rejected their love for me when they tried to show it.Because I did not know how to find love at home, I turned elsewhere. I looked for relationships with guys. However, that did not cause my life to change for the better. Instead, I got into relationship problems. I realized that no matter how good the guy may be, they weren't the solution to my problems. They could not handle the issues that I had in trusting and loving people. As a result, I was often angry and disappointed. I may have had relationships, but still, I was unsatisfied. One day, my brother's friend whom I knew, invited me to attend a church service. I was curious about Christianity so I went along, and I met his church members. They were very sincere and are good company. I was awed. When I went back for service again for the next 2 weeks, I realised that God was the Person that my life was missing. I always wanted someone who has all the answers, all the affection, all the assurance. And I realised that it was unfair to expect it from the people around me. Because nobody is perfect. Only God can give me what I needed. This really broke my heart, and I decided to give God my life. So, 2 weeks after going to church, I decided to respond and give God my life.God began to give me the shoulder I wanted, and He replaced all my sins, hurts and bad manners. Though I still have my problems, but with God, I have the strength to overcome them.Truly, with God, my life has changed.I used to be the notorious troublemaker in school. But now, things have changed. I remember being rude to my teacher last year because I was displeased with her. But as I prayed, God calmed me down and gave me His peace. I treated her with respect, and she did too. We did not fight ever since that day I prayed to God. Now, all my teachers in the past years who pass me by in school always say the same sentence – “Hi Yuan May! You’re so smiley now, you have changed A LOT and it is amazingly beautiful”I'm grateful to God for coming into my life, and with Him, nothing is too difficult for me. I believe that God will continue to change my life. Thank you for your time. Cherie's Testimony  hellooooo! cherie here. :D joined CHC since last yr. and was planted in de awesome N439. (:now, looking bac at my life. i felt tt i've grown alot.from de childish little girl (though i'm still one now) wanting things to go my own way, when i didn't get things my own way, will throw temper, not giving my parents the respect tt dey should get, a girl tt gives her heart easily to guys more and more. i seen myself growing alot. my relationship with my parents now is awesome. we can chat like friends do. i learn alot. tt i need to be strong but with my own strength i can't do anything. i've learn things tt i've never learn frm my old church.yea, i'm born a chirstian. but tt doesn't mean tt i'm v holy or what.yet, i'm the opposite, till i met my great cell and learn alot of great things. i get the love tt no other perple can give me. the great daddy love.from young, my relationship with my father isn't good. although he is at home, but we don't talk. just like strangers.so, i've been lacking of daddy's love, till i finally get it.the love tt will never fails me, the love tt will never push me away, the love tt whenever i did wrong, he wun sae he don't want me, the love tt when i'm sad, he is always dere. last time, i've been searching dis love, search and search and search and even get myself hurt and dirty. but i still can't find.and i'm glad tt i've finally found it and tt could last till eternity. uu can sae tt nth last forever, but his love can. (: i'm still waiting for even more breakthroughs in my life. seeing myself growing even more. even though i'm broken now, but thats the way daddy uses people. and i'm ready ! cherie loves uuuuuu !! ♥ Yizhen's Testimony  Hi, I'm Yi Zhen! I'm a super happy-go-lucky person. I used to slack everyday. In short, my life is just meaningless. Slack, School, Home. I didn't believe in God. And i never thouoght of going to church. But somehow, i did through one of the outreaches. And i just came back for more after meeting God in a very special cellgroup meeting. In the past, i don't really feel secure. But now, i know no matter what happens, I am not alone. And i never will. Weiyong's Testimony  Hi everyone. I'm Weiyong. And i am a christian since i was born.But i used to think, this religion is a total joke. Many people thought the same way.How can a man perform such amazing miracles. I became sceptical.I soon became affected by everything around me.As i grew older and older, my life gradually changed.I began having low self-esteem, lose my confidence, and became a very inward person.Sure, i have a big circle of friends. I always hang out with lots of people.But despite that, i felt so lonely.I soon turned to gaming.I became so addicted to the fantasy world.Thats where i feel my sense of belonging. Until one day, when Songjie invited me to City Harvest Church.I decided to go because i have never been to any other churches before.That was the turning point of my life.Through the care and concern of the whole cellgroup, my life began to change drastically. I began to gain more and more self-esteem, i have confidence in my speech, and i can now speak to strangers like i know him.I have finally broken out from the feeling of loneliness.Having true friends i can share my problems with and depend on.Yea. I used to think christianity is a total joke.But, without God, none of this would have happened.After all that has happened.I finally realise, my thought is the greatest joke. Brenda's Testimony  Hi, my name is Brenda :D Before i went to church, my life is meaningless,with no purpose and i have no real friends.I always feel lonely and nobody cares about me.I waste everyday slacking and i don't care aboutmy studies or family.I used to be very rude to my parents and didn't talk to them much.But this type of life didn't last long(: I was invited to a BBQ by Weiyong and i asked my cliquewho slacked with me along too.We turned up because we had nothing to do that day.Afer the BBQ we were invited to church and few weeks latermy clique and I came to know who is God :DOf course our life didn't change immediately but slowly I begin to feel my life started to change.Now i found my purpose in life and I also know that there are true friends and family whocared for me and God loves me :D Songjie's Tesimony  Hi everyone, my name is Song Jie and I'm 15 this year. I am from a Single-Parent family. I live with my grandfather, mother and 2 brothers.At the age of 10, I was very contented with my life because I had a Dad who would sacrifice his time and money to be with my brothers and I no matter how busy he was in his job as an electrician. I also had a loving mom who would work as a hairstylist for extra income. We even had a maid to take care of our daily needs. However, everything changed suddenly one fateful day. My Dad, wanting to bring us out during the weekend, decided to work overtime during the week. But one day, when he was working overtime, he met with a serious accident at work. None of us expected it and we rushed to the hospital upon hearing the news. He was in grave condition and the doctor told us to prepare for the worst. The doctor only allowed my mother and elder brother to see my dad in his final moments because the sight of our dad’s condition after the accident could traumatize us as I was too young.3 days later, my father passed away. From that day onwards, I started feeling cold emotionally and I felt like I was losing everything that I treasured one by one. It was not easy for my mum, because she had to cope with the grief and the greater responsibilities as she was now the sole bread winner. I hated how things went so horribly wrong in my life. I would drown myself in computer gaming to forget reality. Whenever I thought of my Dad and how things would be if he hadn’t met with the accident, I would cry alone when no one noticed. All this went on until I was sec3.On March 22nd,My Cousin, Jonathan brought me to church on Easter to watch a drama. I felt something very special during the service. I wanted to come back because I was curious about what I felt.I accepted Christ that night and during my first cell group meeting, I encountered a very familiar feeling that I haven't felt for a long time. Father's love.. Ever since that day, my life changed. I found a loving family in my cell group, and with their love and support, I broke the addiction of gaming. The reason why I wanted people to come to church since that day is because I want them to know what I felt and I want them to know that the God I know is very real and He loves us unconditionally, regardless of our past or failures. He wants to restore and heal us of whatever pain we have gone through. So I just want to thank God, for saving me, and giving me a chance to share my story. Thank you for listening. Jeremy's Testimony  Hi(: i am jeremy. One day , Jun Hao message me and ask me whether i wanna go to church for service. And on the day i was very bored and have nothing to do so i agree. And when i was in the service, I felt God presence and he touches me on that day. Before i come to church, everyday i keep doing the same thing(play soccer,slack with friends,use the computer).And i start going out with bad company and we will ride bicycle from night to morning always. After i return to god, i found my purpose and meaning in life after that i forcus in my studys and work hard for my future. xingyan's tesimony  Hi, I’m xingyan. In the past, I didn’t believe in religions, I thought it’s just stories made up by people about their god(s). To me, Christians were a group of holy and spiritual people, obsessed with their God. It was until a period in my life, then I realise that there really is a God, not by extraordinary incident but by ordinary people. I was a quiet person, who studies everyday. Gradually, I became quite an introvert. Everytime I meet new people, I’ll get all quiet. I can joke with my friends and everything, but at the end of the day, nothing was personal. My life in primary school was surrounded by study, study and more study. I scored very well for my results for every year but, I still feel empty. In secondary school, I begin to know more friends and I tried many things to look for a sense of belonging, but my questions were still not answered. What on earth am I here for? Where do I belong to? In 2008 around May, my friend invited me to a food party organised by his church friends. The only reason I went was because many of my friends were going. The first time I met those groups of Christians; I felt something different about them, but I don’t know what was different. Some way or another, their relationship with one another was so close, always laughing and smiling away. When I looked at this group of Christians, somehow I knew they have purpose in their lives. They have something I was searching for at that moment, and that is ‘Purpose’. Who am I? What’s my identity? What am I suppose to do? What do I want to do? All these were the questions in my mind then and I was trying to find it everywhere I could. Their substances attracted me. Having known how much problems they went through but yet seeing them living such a wonderful and meaningful life, I couldn’t understand why. I wanted to experience what they experienced. On 21st June 2008, I made a decision which from then on, changed my life, slowly but surely. I accepted God into my life and things start to change for the better. My bad habits begin to die down. I am able to interact with people more and I found someone who I am able to pour out all my problems to. I remembered one day I was feeling so stressed out for no apparent reason and was crying in my bed. Yes, I was crying. But as I prayed, I begin to felt peace in my heart. I know and I know that it was God who helped me. As time goes by I fell more and more in love with God and I realised Christianity isn’t a religion, but a relationship, with God. Having experienced all that He had done for me, I can’t imagine life without God. To me, it’s only the beginning. Clarissa's Testimony .jpg) Hello, I'm Clarissa (: I used to be a really vulgar person who slacks every single day without fail under blocks, meeting new slackers frequently was a very common thing for me, I am easily influenced by others too. I was much like an antonym of my elder sister in all ways. I didn't bother about my studies either, as I thought that it was a total waste of time. So I always went to school hoping the dismissal bell would ring the next moment. I could recall being invited by a few of them to go for service in the past, but I turned them down, saying that I'd go next time. Till 30th May, I intend to go for service with an old good friend, but she didn't turn up that day due to some family problems. I didn't feel like going to service anymore as I got a little fed up thinking that it would be so boring without her. Moreover, I didn't believe in Christ that point of time. But I was wrong, I got to know more people who are really friendly and I enjoyed myself that evening (: I was then invited to service again for the celebrity weekend on 13th June, which was when my parents started to stop me from going. I went in the end, causing a lot of problems in my family but that was the day which I've recieved Christ, and my life started to change gradually. I began to realise the importance of studying, one of my classmates was really shock as he saw a huge improvement in an E grade subject of mine to a B grade now. I've stopped the bad slacking habit with those company I used to be with and have also stopped using profanities. I finally understood how my parents felt in the past, which made me regretted all my wrong doings. I'm slowly realising the important purpose of life. There is nothing which is impossible. And, although I don't really know everybody in N439 well, I know that they're all really awesome people (: God's love is amazing-ly true. Yanling's Testimony Wednesday, October 7, 2009  Hey guys, i am Yanling. Well, i am not a christian since i was born, but i was brought to City Harvest Children Church by my neighbours when i was Primary 5. I was still young at that moment and don't really know or care about christianity or church. And since i am young that time, my family wouldn't mind me going. Afterall, they knew i would stop going one day. Therefore i wasn't forbidden for going to church. What i knew was fun and fun and fun at that age. I enjoyed my days in City Harvest Children Church, not knowing what is God, and what is the use of me being in Church. All i know was to play. No bible study was given, even preaching was not very common. All we do was just singing and singing. I didn't even know what praise and worship was all about. I continued going to City Harvest Children Church blindly. Everything came to a stop when i was having my PSLE. I was stopped by my parents from going to church as they say it would affect my studies. After that, everything about City Harvest Children Church were removed from my memory. No one ever mention about City Harvest to me. My neighbours were seldom seen too. It was when i was in Secondary two. I met a girl by the name of Clarissa. We were just like any normal classmate. You can never see me hanging out with her after school or during weekends. It was when Common test was near, Clar and me then started studying together often. That was when i got to know that Clar goes to City Harvest Church. I was thrilled when i knew that Clar is from City Harvest Church. But i did nothing about it. One day, I was being invited out to watch a movie with Jeremy, that was when i got to know Jeremy. As I got to know him more, I was invited to an "outing" by Jeremy. I agreed, since i was free on that day. People i met on that day was all unfamiliar, even though most of them were from my school. At marina barrage, games were played and we had a lot of interaction. I enjoyed myself. By the end of the day, i was quite un-shy. i was being invited to join the service the following day and something just tells me to go for it. So i agreed. On my first service, my question was answered. I finally know why my neighbours would introduce me to church. As days pass, i realise the importance of God. Slowly, there was a change in my life. I was a girl who was full of profanities and rudeness. But now, profanities has all become kind words and rudeness changed to helpfulness. My basketball teammates were all puzzled by my sudden change therefore they are not used to it. I was planted back to City Harvest Church once again, with such a loving and caring Cell Group, N439. This is all planned, by our awesome God. |
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